Recently

Let me start by pointing out that it has been more than a MONTH since my last post. Sorry about that. I've been busy.

So, the past events are going to have to become more like footnotes instead of full stories. Over my Christmas vacation I went to Venice, which was absoloutly beautiful. It was many degrees below 0 for my stay, and just as amazing under a coat that made me resemble the michlan man. I went to Murano, the Glass Island, and after all the jokes my glass family made about the irony if I was to live there; all the times I rolled my eyes were misplaced. It was a beautiful island. I was only able to see one factory because my host family wasn't as interested as me, but the rest of the island is still really cool.

Then I went to my friend from Brazil, Marilia, her host family's mountain house. Not like a house for skiing, but in a very little town about an hour away from Brescia. But I went there with her and a bunch of other international friends for New Years and the two days after.

Then I returned and started school. Which my whole being was not welcoming. I got really depressed for a few days...
There were just some problems back in America that I couldn't seem to fix no matter how hard I tried. And my choice to come to Italy wasn't helping the situation. Then, I was having problems figuring out who my real friends are, both in Italy and back home. It seemed (and still sometimes does) that I don't have any friends here. I'm not really aknowlaged at school. Many people just don't like me or find it too frustrating to talk to me. I don't know...many people have different reasons.
But, I also think I was caring too much about having every one here like me. I also had expectations in place before I came. However, I am realizing I just have to stay myself. I feel much better if I do, and that's what matters. I just have to be a good person, and remember that I actually am one.